Are we innately good or are we just pretending to be good because it is expected of us? Does it really matter in the first place, isnt it well that we are good either ways?
Handcuffs-Brand New

Brand new craze is back!! the devil and god is raging inside of me!!

Current Mood: enthralled
Current Music: degausser- brand new

It was a dark and stormy night, the rain poured torrentially,  that night... was exceptionally dark. Four unsuspecting victims strided out of a shady club at 3am not knowing of their impending doom. Jon was a flirtatious and popular ladies man, he should have known better not to mess around with too many girls. Benson was a reserved gentleman capable of furious profanity when provoked. Amy was a typical high school slut who attached herself to popular guys like jon too often. Wendy was the flower of the school with many guys dreaming of winning her. Little did they know that on this fateful day, all four of them were going to perish in the hands of a serial muderer driven by jealousy and hate. As they were starting to get really tipsy, they could not navigate their way out of the series of dark alleys, the fact that the downpour was getting more intense did not help at all. In their haste and with their vision minimised by the pouring rain, they took a wrong turn in both their way and their life.After 15 mins, Jon started to complain like a whimp that his feet were aching and demanded like a baby that they took a rest at the nearest coffeeshop. With that, they headed to the 24 hour coffeeshop in the vicinity, it was extremely deserted at that point of time with only 2 shops left open. Jon ordered his favourite lemon tea and sat down in one of the seats amongst the many. Amy decided to stay with him while Benson headed off to ask for directions and Wendy decided to go to the washroom. They were to rendezvous back at the coffeeshop within 15 minutes and so benson wandered off into the dark all by himself, after 20 minutes, all of them were back at the coffeeshop except benson who was nowhere to be found. The time now was 3.40am, the two girls cowered into jon's arms as thunder struck from the skies and the croaking of the frogs made the atmosphere more tensed. The three of them then set off to look for benson, as they walked, they saw a trail of blood on the floor. Horrified at what might have happened, their curiousity made them followed that trail, little did they know, that trail was the exact trail that lead them to their deaths. Upon reaching a T junction, the trio decided to split up, the two girls headed left while jon headed right. They keep communicated with each other via their cellphones, at first nothing seem to be of any problem except for the unusually loud thunder roaring from the skies. All of a sudden, something came out from the dark to attack Jon, it was a shadowy figure that he could not recognise in the heavy rain. he was armed with  a sharp edge, he lunged at Jon and stabbed him in the back. Jon collapsed onto the floor with a loud thud sounds, as he struggled to turn around, the shadowy figure became clearer and clearer, it was benson. benson kick the cellphone aside and said," All this years i have lived under your shadow, you claim to be my best friend but all you do is humiliate me, i could tolerate those things but it got more and more intense to the point where you stole wendy from me! how could you?! You know i loved her and yet you took her away right under my nose... I will not forgive you for this!" Before jon could say anything, the knife went right into his throat and disabled him from talking. Benson now placed the cellphone back beside jon's mouth, allowing the girls to hear jon wailing helplessly as Benson continue mutilating his body. All they could hear was," h...e...l....p....m.....e...." in a very faint voice. Terrified by this, they starting to panic and ran towards the direction where Jon headed off to, this was a grave mistake. When they approached Jon's body, it was already punctured with 26 holes in his body, at this point, benson appeared once again out of the shadows and knocked Wendy out cold. He then turned his attention of Amy, Amy panicked and tried to scream, but terror took the sound before she could make it, Benson drived his sharpened knife into her stomach and pulled it up all the way to her heart and then fling her down onto the floor, "Whore" he said. The time now was 4.20am, he stood beside Wendy waiting for her to wake up, at 4.30am, Wendy's eyes started to flicker as she awoken. She could see blood dripping from his knife onto her and at this moment, she freaked out and started to push herself away from him. Benson said," how could you be so heartless? I showered you with love and care and yet you left me for Jonathan... you.... you bitch!" he then slapped her face with the back of his hand and she fell right onto the ground, he then took out his sharpened edge and started to cut and stabbed her repeatedly while laughing sadistically, he was already insane. Wendy crumbled under his unrelenting brutality and finally died after 40 wounds inflicted on her body. Realising that he has came to a point of no return, he decided to die with the only girl he has loved in his life, fulfilling his wish. He then stabbed himself in the chest and dropped dead beside wendy. The rain continued to pour like blood continued to flow out of their bodies... a murder so vengeful, a revenge so sweet.

P.S. NO REFERENCE MADE TO JONATHAN THAM, BENSON TAN OR WENDY GOH FROM CLASS 3/2, please do not be offended, any similarities are taken to be accidental.

Current Mood: cranky

jeez i dont know if its my obsession with childish people or im just some stereotypical nerd acting mature but i just bear a grudge against such people for no reason, i mean sometimes we just dont like some people right? Hitler killed 6 million jews cause he simply hated their guts, naw im not going to plot a mass murder of 6 million kids. It just pisses me off when someone... tries to say something intelligent, but ends up failing terribly without anyone noticing. Its just like Dawn Yeo saying that she did a "GIG" that day on the president's star challenge, i dont know if she is trying to be terribly adorable or she just has no brains, a gig is something you EARN money from your performance, the ironic part is that she is doing a show for the PRESIDENT'S STAR CHALLENGE. Well, i can give you much more examples but i guess i shall spare those people from being terribly humiliated and also to save myself, jeez, its hard to survive nowadays with the increasing paranoia in people. "HEY SEE WHAT SEE?" i'm sure many of you are familiarised with this, the signature move of singaporean gangsterism, its kinda interesting to see such things. Watching gangsters in action is like watching a comedy in real life, people could actually die from staring at each other. jeez, singapore culture is twisted, so much for having a short history, we dont have anything for us to identify with..... well "gangsterism" maybe....it's such a disgrace to have these type of people being identified with singapore, tourists come to singapore pretty much to eat and maybe go boat quay, theres nothing really interesting other than historical monuments in singapore. Culture is dead in our country, people are more concerned with superficial things, people dont even remember our past, rapid industrialisation has buried our past and suffocated the younger generation in an endless pool of materialism. You take a walk around malls, the ironic thing is that kids are dining at expensive places while adults are dining at foodcourts, jeez, i mean its just wrong. Now getting on the mainsubject since im already way out of my topic,  as i was saying, children nowadays WANT to grow up too fast, the end result you get is a bunch of adolscent teens acting like adults which they are NOT at all, we need to stop believing in disneyland shit, we need to stop believing that our government is perfect and most of important of all we should stop being so ignorant! well i do sound kinda radical but we do need to open our eyes to see what is going on in the world. When i flip open the newspaper every thursday, i see all sorts of natural disaster and my heart wrenches, for the victims and also, the people around me just simply dismiss it as an everyday news. Singaporeans are too pampered, we need to get out of the shithole that we have dug for ourselves before someone starts throwing shit in and suffocate us.
Its time to stop being so vain, its not a fucking game for you to play, people's feelings are involved in this matter. Even if you want to continue being as fucked up and savour the attention, just leave my fucking friend alone you piece of shit, he has been twisted and torned enough. there is a point to human endurance and that point has long past, he is not  a dog, he is a god damn human for gods sake. I cant believe how vain you are... grow up.

"fuck you!" low eq nerd stereotype at its best. im lucky.

Isnt it both funny and ironic when you feel heartbroken about someone and yet the person is heartbroken about someone else

I never expected much, I knew the outcome and yet i could not resist falling in love with you, it is painful yes but this is beyond my control. You heartbreaker, wicked yet divine and i cant seem to break away from you, you angelic being, the purest form of beauty i have ever set my eyes on and can no longer recognise the beauty of any other girls. Words seem to have lost its meaning when i talk to you, food seems to have lost its taste when i look at you, colours seems to have become duller as i can only picture your beauty in my mind. your voice is like the song of a mermaid, songs seem to have lost it's tune against your voice, without your presence, i find myself like a ship in the middle of a storm without its guiding light. Sometimes i wonder why am i even so foolish to do something that would not bring any positive results to myself. i guess that this is something that will never make sense, just like what they said, love is blind. I guess it is just simply impossible to bring together a pile of dung and a blooming orchid. I can't find the words to say, they are overdue, i'll travel half the world to say that you are my muse.
i belong to you- muse
When these pillars get pulled down,
It will be you who wears the crown,
And I’ll owe everything to you

How much pain has cracked your soul?
How much love could make you whole?
You’re my guiding lightning strike

I can’t find the words to say,
But they’re overdue,
I’ve travelled half the world to say,
I belong to you

Then she attacks me like a Leo,
When my heart is split like Rio,
But, I assure you my debts are real

I can’t find the words to say,
When I’m confused,
I’ve travelled half the world to say,
You are my mu-

(Ah! Réponds à ma tendresse,
Verse-moi, verse-moi l’ivresse,
Réponds à ma tendresse,
Réponds à ma tendresse,
Ah! Verse-moi l’ivresse,
Verse-moi, verse-moi l'ivresse,
Réponds à ma tendresse,
Réponds à ma tendresse,
Ah! Verse-moi l'ivresse,
I belong,
I belong to you alone)

-use,
I can’t find the words to say,
But they’re overdue,
I’ve travelled half the world to say,
I belong to you

Its a shame that we students tend to have a biased perception of a teacher, we always think that teachers are people who were nerdy and geeky back in their schooling years and they are people who just could not make it in life. The fact is, not all teachers are like that, although it is stereotypical for teachers to be geeks, some teachers teach purely out of their interests, different people have different interests, some may be bizare but it should never be something to laugh about. The fact is, teachers tend to be very mistaken, being stereotyped by students as mean MOE- programmed robots designed to torture us instead of moulding our minds. we should open up our minds to really look as a teacher and you would find that they aren't really that much different from us, i mean,a human is afterall a human. In that way, we can connect better with our teachers and pay more attention in class. We should learn to respect our teachers more and pay more attention in class, if you think about it, we are really very fucked up students. Think about it, if you are a teacher, would you like to have your lessons always interrupted by some idiot who just does not wants to learn and if you decide to scold him or whatever, he would probably fall back onto his parents and start to make your life hard, and also, would you like to see people sleeping or talking in your class? its practically depressing and demoralising. I spent many years figuring out why in the world would they want to stop us from talking in class, i suddenly realised the importance of keeping silent in class, sometimes it is just better to keep your mouth shut, afterall silence is golden. A classroom is actually kinda like a stage, the teacher being the performer and the students being the audience, we should respect the teacher like how we respect the performer, we should never laugh at the teacher but rather laugh with him/her. I have been a truant kid in class for almost all of my life so far ,disrupting the teacher's peaceful lessons, i thought it was rather interesting to have the class laughing with you, but i seem to ignore the fact that the teacher is really pissed off. I had many brilliant teachers in primary and secondary school but now i find it a pity because i can longer go back to that period of time and regret my actions. I spend many years figuring out what is wrong with such actions and now i finally had a sudden revelation, it is actually not that hard, you just have to put yourself in the shoes of the teacher and you would see everything clearly. And now, i find myself quite irritated whenever someone disrupts the lesson. Even though lessons can be boring at times, we should always remember the golden rule which is to respect the teacher, i learnt it after many years of pondering. If you asked me what brought about this change, i would have told you that people have certain revelations in their life as they mature and sometimes, we change the way we act because we all have to learn someday that something is wrong or right

Current Mood: happy
Current Music: i belong to you muse

you know whats the problem with teenagers nowadays? remember how adults tell you to cherish your childhood because you only have one childhood in your entire life,nowadays these teenagers despite falling under the category of youngsters are desperate to grow up. The worst part is that they dont actually grow up, they just think that they are matured and start calling people young, naive and childish. What is wrong with these people? dont ask me, im equally pissed off at them as you are, why can't you just accept the fact that you are still a young and growing boy. What's so great about being an adult anyway, you have to feel the burden of so many things, might as well enjoy your twilight years of childhood. I hate it especially when these people start giving " words of wisdom" as though they have been through 3 quarters of their life, its is not only false but also ridiculously amusing. How can one give such words of wisdoms when you have only been confined within the four walls of schools with a big propaganda slammed on it.  You don't even know what is going on in the world and you are still so ignorant, its funny how people think that they are actually "mature". The most amusing part is the childish one is laughing at another person for being childish, it is, literally the pot calling the kettle black, why can't these childish people just use their brains for once and save themselves from becoming a laughing stock, its probably because they dont even have brains to start with. Nobody really asks you for any comments and why do you have to speak as though you are a man of superiority, keep your comments to yourself, silence is golden. Be smart, prudence is a virtue. I am a freaking 14 year old kid and i am loving it, why cant you people be like me? enjoy ur childhood while you can, we may be young and a little naive but you people are really the ones who are childish.

Another promise, another scene, another package to keep me wrapped in greed. It had always difficult to separate whats right and whats wrong, whats true and whats false when you are confused, if i have to learn it the hard way then so be it. I would rather die a short and sweet death than get dragged along and tortured until i die. Dealing with false hopes has always been life's lesser challenges, one must never be deluded by the sin of greed, we must always be steadfast in our decision and thoughts and not be hesitant. hesitation breeds procrastination, procrastination breeds laze, laze would ultimately result in you not doing what you are suppose to complete in the first place. we should never look back and daydream of what we have achieved in the past, we are living in the present and we should deal with the present and not look back at what we had in the past, the past is not the present. even if you got straight As for prelimary exams does not mean that you will get straight As for your O levels, a person is bound to fail if he gets complacent about his former glory and doesnt look forward to the present, we should never look backward to our past, the past is history, what we have to deal with is not history but the present. A person who looks backs gives himself false hopes that he is going to pull it off again and doesnt bothers about studying hard for exams. False hopes are a result of laze, it acts as an excuse for us to exclude ourselfs from doing what we are suppose to do. A person who says " oh i didnt study much this time, thats why i got lousy marks, if i studied, i would be sure to get high marks." is a useless and pathetic person, a classic example of false hopes. This person eventually goes on to lack behind his hardworking peers and eventually falls behinds into his  fantasy world, think about it, a talented person that goes to waste because he was consumed by laze, he eventually goes on to ruin his own life and finally somehow realises how he fucked up his schooling years. That's the problem with people nowadays, they look back too much and regret, why bother yourself about things that are already the past, we could always look forward and become better people. There was this story about this baghdad citizen who was walking home one day and suddenly a voice in his head told him to pick up some stones as it would be useful for tomorrow . After pondering for awhile, he found it harmless to try and so picked up a few rough and unpolised rocks and dumped it into his pocket. The next day, when he checked his pocket, he found that the rugged stone he picked up yesterday has actually turned into a polished and shiny jewel. At this moment, he was shocked and regretful and thus he went back to the same spot and filled his pockets with rocks but they never turned into jewels again. This is a classic story of how a person who looks back too much, he should be looking on the brightside that he got himself some jewels for free and not that he did not pick up more stones.  A person who is able to look on the brightside is someone who will always be fulfilled with his own life even if he was as poor a beggar. On the contary, a person who never looks on the brightside will never be satisfied with his life even if he owned the whole world.   Looking at the dark side only makes us more depressed about that particular thing that has already caused us much grief, if we look on the brightside, we can at least console ourselves a little.......( to be continued)


P.S. check out I belong to you-Muse. the clarinet solo at the last part was such a kick ass that they should have smashed it at the end of the solo!